meditation challenge: day 17

By August 21, 2013 No Comments

I love my new routine of meditating immediately when I wake up. This morning, I laid in contemplation and relaxation for a full 30 minutes before getting up to start the day. It’s crazy to think that I ever went through life without setting my intentions and settling into my body before heading out into the world.

Austeja Saffron

Austeja Saffron

It seems ridiculous to me now that I would have ever just thrust myself into the world without taking the time to check in with myself and get ready for the day.

I mean, we all come up against so much stuff in our everyday life and to just go into things with our heads down charging forward and just trying to survive, I mean.. it sounds crazy, right?

Taking just a few minutes to feel my breath moving through my body. To relax and be quiet. To just give myself the time to move through any emotion that needs cleared – it’s incredible how much of a difference it makes. It’s literally a new kind of life.

I felt a little sad when I woke up this morning, but I realized pretty quickly that it was because of my dreams, and had nothing to do with reality.

My reality was pretty great in fact. I was laying in the dark in a super comfortable bed surrounded by fluffy pillows and luxury linens and still had 30 minutes until I needed to start moving around.

So I just started my meditation and let go of the sadness that lingered over from my dreams. By the time I was heading out to drive to work I felt totally different than when I woke up. I was happy and energized. I’m even appreciating my drive to work these days. Seriously. I’m so lucky to get to drive the route that takes me from home to work.

I start with a meandering path through my favorite neighborhoods in LA — Los Feliz and Silver Lake, then take the 2 Freeway through the hills and valleys before driving out towards the mountains. It’s incredible. And as a super added bonus I go against the flow of traffic, so I don’t have to deal with the normal stop and go that most Angelenos suffer through. I just step on the gas, take in the views and listen to music.

Anyway, the point of all this is that if I just leapt out of bed every morning (like I used to) then I’d be burdened or driven all day by whatever emotion I happened to wake up with which is just crazy. I mean the solution to this is so easy. Why would I ever choose not to take the 3 or 5 or 15 minutes in the morning to get aligned?

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you. Don’t go back to sleep.
– Rumi

Because all it takes is a few minutes to quiet my mind, relax into my body and allow whatever emotions I’m feeling to move through me before I’m able to settle into a calmness that’s objective.

A calmness that allows me to see the day as it comes with clear eyes. I can move through annoyances, negative experiences and sadness quickly, and am able to savor and bask in the good things because I’m present.

Today wasn’t perfect of course. There were a couple of times when I felt sad because of letting go yesterday and there were a few times when I was frustrated in regards to my job, but those moments aren’t what I remember the most when I look back on today.

What I remember most is how healthy and alive my body felt in yoga tonight, and how delicious my pasta dinner tasted, and how much I really like listening to my roommate tell me stories and make me laugh, and how I love walking to the park next to our office on my lunch break and laying in the grass, and how I love getting silly text messages from my best friend throughout the day.

This is what stands out. Not the crappy stuff.

† As I continue to stay aware of the sensations in my body and breath, I feel layers of residual fear, physical pain and sadness leave my body forever.

The 21-day meditation challenge