It’s difficult to accept the truth when you wish the truth was different, but it doesn’t have to be overwhelmingly difficult. Today, I realized that I’m really learning the art of letting go. There is a relationship in my life that I feel I need to let go of, but it’s not something I want to do.
In the past, coming to this type of conclusion or deciding to walk away from a situation that I really didn’t want to walk away from would cause me a great deal of anxiety.
I would spend hours thinking about it, obsessing over the decision, and then probably spend even more time going back and forth trying to figure out how I could manipulate the situation to make the truth of it different somehow. NOTE: This method is a complete waste of time and effort.
So today I kept focused on two things: remaining as an observer of my emotions, and letting go.
The first thing, remaining as an observer or witness, helps me to see situations and relationships more objectively because I focus on muting the stories my brain makes up and instead I just play witness to what I’m feeling.
When I observe my emotions and reactions to another person, I’m able to clearly identify why I experience the feelings that come up. With this information I’m then better able to respond in a way that best serves what I need.
These pains you feel are messengers. Listen to them.
The second item used to sound like lip service to me. But after these last eleven months or so of really diving into yoga and meditation, I can say that it is absolutely something that can be done at merely the thought of it.
After my second meditation of the day, I laid in the grass under trees at the park, quieted my mind and body, and then just let go. I accepted the truth and then released my attachment to outcome in regards to this relationship.
I didn’t get any anxiety and while I feel a bit sad, I don’t feel overwhelmed. I just won’t give in to those feelings anymore because I’ve come to understand that I can’t control the outcome of most things and so letting go is just the easiest way to return my mind and body back to a more peaceful flow.
† Letting go isn’t easy, but holding on is harder.