meditation challenge: day 16

By August 20, 2013 No Comments

It’s difficult to accept the truth when you wish the truth was different, but it doesn’t have to be overwhelmingly difficult. Today, I realized that I’m really learning the art of letting go. There is a relationship in my life that I feel I need to let go of, but it’s not something I want to do.

In the past, coming to this type of conclusion or deciding to walk away from a situation that I really didn’t want to walk away from would cause me a great deal of anxiety.

I would spend hours thinking about it, obsessing over the decision, and then probably spend even more time going back and forth trying to figure out how I could manipulate the situation to make the truth of it different somehow. NOTE: This method is a complete waste of time and effort.

So today I kept focused on two things: remaining as an observer of my emotions, and letting go.

The first thing, remaining as an observer or witness, helps me to see situations and relationships more objectively because I focus on muting the stories my brain makes up and instead I just play witness to what I’m feeling.

When I observe my emotions and reactions to another person, I’m able to clearly identify why I experience the feelings that come up. With this information I’m then better able to respond in a way that best serves what I need.

These pains you feel are messengers. Listen to them.

– Rumi

The second item used to sound like lip service to me. But after these last eleven months or so of really diving into yoga and meditation, I can say that it is absolutely something that can be done at merely the thought of it.

After my second meditation of the day, I laid in the grass under trees at the park, quieted my mind and body, and then just let go. I accepted the truth and then released my attachment to outcome in regards to this relationship.

I didn’t get any anxiety and while I feel a bit sad, I don’t feel overwhelmed. I just won’t give in to those feelings anymore because I’ve come to understand that I can’t control the outcome of most things and so letting go is just the easiest way to return my mind and body back to a more peaceful flow.

† Letting go isn’t easy, but holding on is harder.

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