Although I’m working to move away from the habit of labeling each and every emotion and experience as either good or bad, I’m still not there yet, so I can go ahead and say that today was
I felt no tightness in my chest or anxiety, I felt a sense of contentment for most of the day, and found that I moved slower than usual. My mind stayed pretty much wherever I was and didn’t run into the past or future too much.
It was a good lesson to go from a pretty much crappy day yesterday, to a relaxed and anxiety-free experience today.
It reminds me that part of this journey into shadow work involves accepting a more balanced and healthy perspective of day-to-day life — one where I integrate into my expectations that it is completely normal to experience a wide range of emotions — some of which will feel “good” and some “bad”.
To try and battle myself on days when things aren’t perfect is a waste. On days like yesterday, the focus needs to remain on caring for myself and practicing the art of letting go and releasing the negative emotions as they flow through me.
Holding onto them, shutting down, or trying to block them out only works to trap those emotions and perpetuate cyclical thinking. It’s days like this where I need to be able to move into a space where I say, “This is just one day and it’s off and it doesn’t matter.” End of story.
Feelings come and go like clouds in a windy sky. Conscious breathing is my anchor.
– Thích Nhất Hạnh
Today we meditated around the concept that we can use our energy to heal and transform ourselves and the world around us. We all carry energy into every situation in our lives — when we walk into a meeting room at work, stand in line at the grocery, sit at a table with friends — whatever. We all bring an energetic signature to every experience in life.
I kept this at front of mind today and tried envisioning my chest falling open and radiating out acceptance, understanding, and goodwill at both work and in yoga class.
For people who haven’t tried to physically manipulate emotions and energy with their mind, this probably sounds ridiculous. But when you start practicing it, well — when I’ve started practicing it, I know for a fact that it’s possible.
And it’s fun.
Really fun. Mindfulness is like this new game that I can always play no matter where I am.
† The more I turn within, the more I trust myself in exploring my own unique path.