Today, the Meditation Challenge was focused on our ability to receive and to care for ourselves. It seems so obvious when you say it, but I never really stopped to consider that giving and receiving are different aspects of the same flow of energy in the universe.This morning, I woke to a sense of sadness after intense dreams involving my family.
In one part of the dream, I was standing with my siblings and estranged father while my mother was very far away trying to take photographs of us.
I called to my mother to come closer so that she could see us. My dad seemed to be very fragile, disengaged and quiet. This is really all I can recall this evening.
My dreams were vivid to me when first got up, so I’m going to try and get in the habit of recording them right when wake up so I don’t forget them.
I was doing a pretty good job of dream journaling for a week or so, but then I stopped.
I do think it’s worth the effort though, because when I take the time to think through the symbols and situations that come up, I’m often able to discern a new bit of information regarding how I deal with things in my waking world.
Anyway, after a bit of thinking, I decided to let the dreams go and meditate. I felt completely back to neutral after just 15 minutes and had a great rest of the day.
I even laid in the grass in the park on my lunch break and meditated for 30 more minutes. It was a progressive muscle relaxation meditation by Silva Peaks and I came into a place of feeling totally merged with the ground below me and the air above me.
Walking back into work I felt light and happy. This feeling stayed with me for the rest of the day and I noticed that I was especially present while spending time with my friend Rob this evening.
I heard what he was saying more clearly and noticed details about the things around us more than I normally would.
Learning how to be present is really fun for me and it doesn’t feel like it’s going to ever get not-fun. It reminds me of the way I felt when I went snorkeling for the first time in Bali. It’s just a new sensation altogether which is something that’s rare to come by once you’re an adult.
For me, I just put myself in a happier place when I’m able to keep my mind in the place where I actually am instead of letting it drag behind on old memories or fly ahead to fantasy created future scenarios.
† When I remain present I feel calm, healthy and radiant.
I’m going to meditate one more time before bed while focusing on the mantra, Om Vardhanam Namah, which means ‘I nourish the universe and the universe nourishes me.’