i hope it’s just a stage. a phase. a protective mechanism. a survival technique.
a passing series of moments that will be hard to recall in the somewhat near future.
an emotional blackout of sorts
he said “maybe it’s not over”
he kissed me
he looked different in the way i always wanted him to
i didn’t feel anything
that made me sad. but not sad enough to cry.
just sad enough to realize that i’m numb
i want the sensitivity back. i want to feel something. even if it’s just sadness.
can a heart be shocked into numbness forever?
please say no. that i’ve got it wrong and it’s just a phase.